i am on a chetan bhagat high right now. :) why? in 2 weeks i have grinded 3 of his books. i have to say i am presently suprise by his writting. his books a are fun, crazy. disfunctional with a deep underlying message. i have to say its been ages since i read a book and laughed at the humour of it. 2 states made me smile with its simplicity. bhagat s book raise the topic of
WhATs the BIG DEAL with inter racial marriage?
why the big hooo haaa? when two people already love each other i think they already know what they are getting into..... so why all this sudden interference from parents, aunties, uncles, grand parents, great grandparents?
i personally think parents should only remind the kids and not order them that it will be difficult.
im not condoning inter racial LOVE nor am i condemning it but i am a strong believer in do what makes your heart happy.
but at the end of the day... u cant blame the parents for feeling what they feel.

BUT...

in the words of the beautiful Dalai Lama.....

The Religion OF thE world Is HUMANITY...

everyone should start leaning that and all Shall be Well........ almost..... fingers crossed.... ;)

yet again im back to feeling lonely.....

this familiar feeling...makes me just wanna well up and cry...

why fight ur way through when u know u were gonna leave?...

im not as strong as you think..

my heart is numb..... i cant feel anything...

i try to smile..... fake as it may be...

i tried my best.... maybe it was just not meant to be...

but why must it hurt so much?

There is only one happiness in life: to love and be loved.
~ by George Sand ~

journey....

im sorry...
my insecurities takes over me...
i don't want you to leave... i want you here... right here... by my side...
i don't say it..... but that's my only wish...
day after day i find my self loving even more...
how can i stop my self from self destructing??
life has been reduced to loving you....
you are my solace...
u make sense...
your permanent.... but why doesn't my heart want to believe it?
maybe because i have loved and lost so many times....
please forgive me for being me....
my insecurities takes over me...
im sorry....... :(

:) :)

Don't frown because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.

The Heart....

what is it that you are not telling me? there is something.... i don't want another previous situation back in my life....i am finally living... finally happy.... please be as honest as your heart can be... that's all i ask from you.. do not melt my heart only to stone it all over again...
i don't remember asking much from you, all i ask for is total transparency, i don't know if you are giving me that but believe me my heart wants to go on without a doubt...
i know this is the best moments..... i know, my heart knows, but my overwhelming feeling of knowing something is not right is taking over me....
i need a solace from all this madness....
i need a holiday... been asking for one for months now..
maybe then i can actually sit back and relax and enjoy this moments....
can my head just stop thinking..... a least for 30 seconds....
why is it so difficult to believe that you make me the happiest....
your imperfections seems so small....
loving it is the name of the game.....

round and round....

Its happening all over again and i am not sure i am liking it. it took me a year to get back to my normal ways, am i sure i want to do it again? why am i not enjoying this moment?
maybe i should just stop and smell the polluted air before i jump into unwanted conclusions.
but how do i be normal especially when the past still hurts?