LiFe or something like tht....

last night the family decided we would as a loving family would go out for dinner together for some bonding time... off we went to gourmet terrace our favorite restaurant.. im quite convinced that we are contrbuting almost half of their profits there..thts how often we actually go.
Anyways, thats not my point.... my point is, i enjoy family dinners epecially when its only the four of us. the chemistry between us is just so overwhelming. But yesterday something was amiss,at least for me.. we laughed, we joked, the talked,we discussed but something was not right. it was right there and then it hit me..... in 2 months it will not be the 4 of us anymore. Gurmin, my sister is leaving to australia. time is flying even sooner than i thought before you know it, she will be gone.
how am i gonna live without her. my best friend,my confidant,my sister,my teacher,my mentor,my guardian angel, my mum,my life...
we fight, we disagree with everything, we have contradicting views, we are diffrent people but our hearts belongs t each other. today as i am sitting here at work, i regret all those times where is wasted my time iriating her,making her angry...i wish i could just turn back time and give her all the happiness she deserves and much more.
i find it much easier to write my feelings rather than saying it. this are my thoughts which i never knew i had, its not from my head but from my heart...
how do i tell her not to go?
am i being to selfish?
yes i am..
But isnt that part of human nature?
to never detach yourself from something that brings you so much of joy... i guess i have to let go.
all my life people have been walking in and out of it, but she stayed, she forgived me for all my sillyness along the years. she always had my back.even at the worse times, i always knew she would be there...

i guess i fear that she would forget me, she would find new people to hang out with, she would just drift away like how the others did.....